This weekend was good. A birthday party, warm weather and time to play outside, and cleaned up some things I've been meaning to clean for ages. The deck is now up and operational again after the small fire that burned a hole in it and the siding has been replaced. So, all and all it's been a good past few days.
Today I got started by taking the dog to the vet and luckily my son was fine with the visit as well as our trip to the commissary (all except the last 5 minutes). Sadly though, he fell asleep in the car (adorable) and then decided a 15-20 min nap was all he needed and has recently become angry at the world. So, time for another nap...and since the sun has been covered by the clouds, thus providing great lighting (or lack thereof) in his room, I'm hoping he decides to take a power nap to recharge and turn back into that cute, sweet little boy I know.
This week I have a list started of tasks to do before the deployment (which we still don't have a date for). It ranges from the everyday things like cleaning the house to other things like insurance stuff. My latest preoccupation is of painting my soon to be daughters room. Oddly enough I've decided on blue paint (for the bottom half, white for the top) and I rather like the way it's turning out so far. Granted I've only painted blotches on the wall of the blue, but I have the white coat on and one more to go before I'm satisfied so I can get an idea of what it will look like. I'm dreading painting the woodwork though. What a pain in the butt. But at least I'll have it done soon and will be able to decorate and go mad with purchasing things I may or may not need for the room. This is what happens when you never got a chance to do the nursery for the first child...now that I own my home I can paint it whatever color I want and do whatever I want to it...and I am.
I am still pretty laid back about the impending deployment. Mostly due to the fact that I don't have a date that I have the dreaded countdown started for. So until I get that date I can float around on my puffy cloud of delusion and think all is well in the world. I do know that "shits gonna get real" here soon and I'll be off my cloud and into a puddle of mud in no time, but knowing that I'll soon be living with family and spending my days with yet another tiny bundle of joy does lighten the mood. I know it's going to be chaos when I get back to life in my house, but until then I can enjoy the help of family and the joy of my newborn (lets not forget the joys of no sleep...maybe I can coordinate my dogs wanting out at 2am with a nighttime feeding???). Anyway, life is good now and until I get that dreaded date and have to actually hop off my puffy cloud I'll be happy to live in a delusional world of bliss. Now if only that world included self cleaning houses and husbands who could keep the kitchen and bathroom sinks clean. Until tomorrow world!
Monday, February 25, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
A good weekend...short and sweet
This weekend was presidents day and we packed up the car and headed home to see our families and celebrate our sons birthday. While spending our time at home I managed to eat Chipotle...one of my favorite places to eat, go shopping for our soon to be daughter, and have a great time at the birthday party.
Still no news on the deployment dates and to be honest I'm not sure if I'd rather know or not know. Knowing gives me the chance to start planning for the move, figure out what I need to get done, and prepare emotionally for his absence, but not knowing means it's still a little ways away and I don't have to pin a date on the first day I'll be alone again.
Today I did manage to get a hose for our washing mashing which decided to pour water all over the corner kitchen floor and seep into our basement. Luckily we noticed the dripping in the basement and managed to locate it's source and stop the leak right before leaving on Friday. I also managed to woof down the last of the cake from the party. Man, if I'm a sucker for something, it's cake! What is it about the delectable moist cake and icing combo that makes me drool like a St. Bernard staring at a pole of dog food. Ok, maybe not that bad, but still I may have a cake addition.
Now my next big task is picking paint colors for our daughters room. Still haven't found the perfect color yet, but I think I'm getting close. Oddly enough I'm going with a blue room...not your traditional girls room, but it will have white and butterflies with a splash of color here and there and I can't wait to get it all set up. One thing I've always enjoyed is decorating. I tend to have a lot of ideas, but unfortunately I don't always have the motivation to get it all done in a timely manner. And speaking of timely manners or using my time wisely, I need to get off here and get some things done!
Seems like I'm always doing something even when I want to do nothing!
Still no news on the deployment dates and to be honest I'm not sure if I'd rather know or not know. Knowing gives me the chance to start planning for the move, figure out what I need to get done, and prepare emotionally for his absence, but not knowing means it's still a little ways away and I don't have to pin a date on the first day I'll be alone again.
Today I did manage to get a hose for our washing mashing which decided to pour water all over the corner kitchen floor and seep into our basement. Luckily we noticed the dripping in the basement and managed to locate it's source and stop the leak right before leaving on Friday. I also managed to woof down the last of the cake from the party. Man, if I'm a sucker for something, it's cake! What is it about the delectable moist cake and icing combo that makes me drool like a St. Bernard staring at a pole of dog food. Ok, maybe not that bad, but still I may have a cake addition.
Now my next big task is picking paint colors for our daughters room. Still haven't found the perfect color yet, but I think I'm getting close. Oddly enough I'm going with a blue room...not your traditional girls room, but it will have white and butterflies with a splash of color here and there and I can't wait to get it all set up. One thing I've always enjoyed is decorating. I tend to have a lot of ideas, but unfortunately I don't always have the motivation to get it all done in a timely manner. And speaking of timely manners or using my time wisely, I need to get off here and get some things done!
Seems like I'm always doing something even when I want to do nothing!
Monday, February 11, 2013
Decisions decisions
This past week has had a lot of ups and downs and I am finally getting to the point where I need to start preparing for the next few months. This deployment will be a whole new ballgame and I have a lot to do before he leaves. Most importantly I have decided to move home for a few months into the summer. It took awhile and a lot of talking to everyone to figure out what was best and in the end, moving home seemed to be the most logical option. Luckily I have amazing parents who wouldn't mind having their 30 year old daughter, her toddler, newborn, and dog stay with them.
Now not only do I have to figure out what to do for a new doctor and hospital or the birth, I have to figure out who is going to mow the lawn this summer, what to move back with me and what to leave, when to paint the baby's room, where to contact my husband, who his boss is and his contact info, the FRG leaders info, and may more things that go along with a deployment. I've never moved for a deployment, but seeing as I'll be giving birth during it, I figure it's best to be with family (and someone who can drive me and help me at the hospital in case my husband isn't there).
It's a crazy world us military spouses live in. Today, my husband came home for lunch with boxes of new military garb that he will need in Afghanistan. Just more stuff to add to the never ending pile (or foot lockers and boxes) of military stuff. Luckily we have a basement and I fully intend to use it! It does make it all the more real to see him putting his newly issued things together and getting them ready for the deployment. I had a year long deployment by myself thousands of miles away from family once before and never had to move, but this deployment is much more of a challenge for not only myself, but my children (and that includes the dogs). I will learn the true meaning of independence as the year goes on. I have delt with deployment before and it sucked, but it was no where near as bad as I thought it would be, but I had no children, one dog, and a job. Not to mention I decided it would be a great time to take guitar lessons (something I plan to do this deployment as well) and started running.
This year will be a challenge, but I'm diving in head first and we'll see how well it goes.
Now not only do I have to figure out what to do for a new doctor and hospital or the birth, I have to figure out who is going to mow the lawn this summer, what to move back with me and what to leave, when to paint the baby's room, where to contact my husband, who his boss is and his contact info, the FRG leaders info, and may more things that go along with a deployment. I've never moved for a deployment, but seeing as I'll be giving birth during it, I figure it's best to be with family (and someone who can drive me and help me at the hospital in case my husband isn't there).
It's a crazy world us military spouses live in. Today, my husband came home for lunch with boxes of new military garb that he will need in Afghanistan. Just more stuff to add to the never ending pile (or foot lockers and boxes) of military stuff. Luckily we have a basement and I fully intend to use it! It does make it all the more real to see him putting his newly issued things together and getting them ready for the deployment. I had a year long deployment by myself thousands of miles away from family once before and never had to move, but this deployment is much more of a challenge for not only myself, but my children (and that includes the dogs). I will learn the true meaning of independence as the year goes on. I have delt with deployment before and it sucked, but it was no where near as bad as I thought it would be, but I had no children, one dog, and a job. Not to mention I decided it would be a great time to take guitar lessons (something I plan to do this deployment as well) and started running.
This year will be a challenge, but I'm diving in head first and we'll see how well it goes.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Oh what a night...
Yesterday I waited patiently, but not holding my breath for my dress to come. It didn't. I called the post office only to find out it would arrive on Saturday, the day AFTER the ball and I'm sure it will be here shortly as the mail usually comes in 1/2 hour. The stress began when I knew it wasn't coming, but my hubby tried to help by asking if any spouses might have a dress I could borrow. Low and behold one person did...so then the race was on to figure out how to get said dress and get my hair and makeup done in time to get back by 5:30 and leave for the ball. I picked up the dress and saw that it was rather informal and thought it would go with none of my jewelery, but what the hell I have tickets to this ball and a hair apt in 5 min, I'm going now fancy dress or no. So I took the dress and went to get my hair done. Luckily, I had just enough time before all this to drop off my son, who didn't seem the slightest bit interested in lunch and made me get off to a late start to the sitters.
Since my dress didn't come in I had pretty much sat on my butt all morning and not thought to paint my toenails (a must for someone who would have worn open toed shoes to a ball) nor did I paint my fingernails. Now, you may not think this is a big deal, but I had month old toenail polish on and peeling clear polish on my fingers. Not quite what I was hoping to sport at a ball. So, after getting the dress and showing it to my friend I was meeting to have our hair done together, she decided that it was time to offer me a black dress that was shorter (below the knee) than the typical ball gown, but would be more fancy, so I followed her after we had out hair done and grabbed the dress (along with another she thought might work). Thankfully it worked and I got to sport my baby bump accommodating dress, some nice high heels, and the pretty jewelry I had as well as a nice hair do and I did my own makeup. All and all the night worked out nicely, but the day was a mess!
Upon arriving at the ball I managed to find 4 people wearing the dress I ordered! One was the exact dress, same color, another was teal, one was plum, and the other was black, but with a slightly different fabric to the dress, but the lace was the same and the cut. So in the end I guess maybe it's a good thing I didn't become the 5th member of the wear the same dress party, but I have to say it was a nice dress and oddly none of the women seemed to be pregnant. Perhaps they were all post baby bump?? Anyway, I managed to have a good night and eat lots of food while thinking in my head that that woman who didn't deliver my dress sucks because it would have looked great on me. I was happy that I got to wear the dress I did though because it was comfortable (and pretty) and that is a big deal when you're pregnant and need some room to breathe when you sit!
They even had a bald eagle (a live one with handler and all) posing for photos with you. Sadly we missed out on this photo op, but it was pretty nifty. It made a few calls while posing, but other than that it was pretty statuesque. Personally I would have been more impressed with a golden eagle as those are my favorite raptor, but the bald eagle is the symbol of the division, so it's kinda a key figure and an appropriate bird to have for photo ops if you're going for that sort of thing. On a side note, our son had a great time at the sitters and didn't have any problem getting woken up, transported home, and put back to bed at 11pm.
Much to my delight, my hair is still nice and curly after sleeping on it and that is a massive feat as my hair is long and never holds curl for too long. Must be some good product she used! I do believe I will enjoy my curly hair for one more day and then wash it tonight when I'm sure most of the curl will have left.
Other than enjoying my evening, this weekend is shaping up to be a good one. Today we find out if we're having a boy or girl, then I get to stuff my face with chocolate at a chocolate fair. Can't wait! Who doesn't love chocolate? I mean really... Tomorrow will be a fix the deck that my husband burnt a hole in and hopefully figure out where to get the siding we need, then buy mattresses for our son who will be graduating to the "big boy bed." Not to mention talking with mom and dad to tell them the baby news and determine just where I will be living come late spring through the summer (a decision that will have to be made soon and with the help of my family and my husbands). All and all this is shaping up to be a good weekend. Looking forward to all the good things to come today!
Since my dress didn't come in I had pretty much sat on my butt all morning and not thought to paint my toenails (a must for someone who would have worn open toed shoes to a ball) nor did I paint my fingernails. Now, you may not think this is a big deal, but I had month old toenail polish on and peeling clear polish on my fingers. Not quite what I was hoping to sport at a ball. So, after getting the dress and showing it to my friend I was meeting to have our hair done together, she decided that it was time to offer me a black dress that was shorter (below the knee) than the typical ball gown, but would be more fancy, so I followed her after we had out hair done and grabbed the dress (along with another she thought might work). Thankfully it worked and I got to sport my baby bump accommodating dress, some nice high heels, and the pretty jewelry I had as well as a nice hair do and I did my own makeup. All and all the night worked out nicely, but the day was a mess!
Upon arriving at the ball I managed to find 4 people wearing the dress I ordered! One was the exact dress, same color, another was teal, one was plum, and the other was black, but with a slightly different fabric to the dress, but the lace was the same and the cut. So in the end I guess maybe it's a good thing I didn't become the 5th member of the wear the same dress party, but I have to say it was a nice dress and oddly none of the women seemed to be pregnant. Perhaps they were all post baby bump?? Anyway, I managed to have a good night and eat lots of food while thinking in my head that that woman who didn't deliver my dress sucks because it would have looked great on me. I was happy that I got to wear the dress I did though because it was comfortable (and pretty) and that is a big deal when you're pregnant and need some room to breathe when you sit!
They even had a bald eagle (a live one with handler and all) posing for photos with you. Sadly we missed out on this photo op, but it was pretty nifty. It made a few calls while posing, but other than that it was pretty statuesque. Personally I would have been more impressed with a golden eagle as those are my favorite raptor, but the bald eagle is the symbol of the division, so it's kinda a key figure and an appropriate bird to have for photo ops if you're going for that sort of thing. On a side note, our son had a great time at the sitters and didn't have any problem getting woken up, transported home, and put back to bed at 11pm.
Much to my delight, my hair is still nice and curly after sleeping on it and that is a massive feat as my hair is long and never holds curl for too long. Must be some good product she used! I do believe I will enjoy my curly hair for one more day and then wash it tonight when I'm sure most of the curl will have left.
Other than enjoying my evening, this weekend is shaping up to be a good one. Today we find out if we're having a boy or girl, then I get to stuff my face with chocolate at a chocolate fair. Can't wait! Who doesn't love chocolate? I mean really... Tomorrow will be a fix the deck that my husband burnt a hole in and hopefully figure out where to get the siding we need, then buy mattresses for our son who will be graduating to the "big boy bed." Not to mention talking with mom and dad to tell them the baby news and determine just where I will be living come late spring through the summer (a decision that will have to be made soon and with the help of my family and my husbands). All and all this is shaping up to be a good weekend. Looking forward to all the good things to come today!
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
A new day a new disappointment
Last night I get the news I was waiting to dreading hearing. As he started telling me how his day went by talking about how all the guys in the battalion (he talked to a lot of people apparently) agreed 100% with him and not the guy who's totally screwing him for not taking the position he was offered (which isn't unheard of) and is now being a vindictive ass and essentially tossing him out of the battalion, I knew it wasn't going to be good. He knew what I wanted to know and I figured since he was taking his sweet time to get to what I wanted and needed to know, it wasn't going to be good. And it wasn't.
Those 12 month deployments have not gone by the wayside as I found out that his new job will involve what would be a 12 month deployment, but he's leaving a little later since he just got there so he will be gone for 10-11 months. I also learned that not only is he deploying, he's deploying in March....yes, March. So after a month of him being gone at training where he was observing others who are getting ready to go overseas, he is now back for a short while only to deploy and be gone again. All the while leaving his young child and pregnant wife behind. Now, I know he didn't want to have this happen. No one asks for a long deployment unless they're desperate for more money and want to get away from their spouse.
However, I now find myself in a bit of a pickle...ok, more like a massive pile of shit. I am stuck with the decision of where to have the baby, back home with family, or here where we're stationed and I have two friends, one of which will be leaving in a month for training in the air force and the other in an intense nursing program. So, my interaction with other adults will be limited to say the least. However, staying here gives me my space, enough bedrooms, a doctor and hospital I know, and I don't have to worry about what to do with the animals. Going home presents the problem with the dogs and living space. With a toddler and a newborn things will be rather cramped and I'll only go home for a few months at most. I guess it's time to start a list of pros and cons. Either way I feel like I'm up shit creek without a paddle.
Being in the military and being a spouse of a soldier comes with many issues and this is one you hope you never have to face. The only ray of light is that 12 month deployments include a two week r&r whereas 9 months do not. So, there is a possibility that he may be here when the baby is born, but there's no guarantee that I'm going to have the baby in that two week window considering our first born was a week and a half early and who knows what will happen this time. So my positive cloud floating attitude has fallen flat and is now down pouring with unhappy emotions, but this is the way it is and I guess I just have to deal. So, in order to deal, I will be going to a store to buy some things for my sons new bedroom and then to the grocery store to buy the doughnut I've been craving for weeks.
On another note...my dress is STILL not here. Grrr. But at least I know (after much hounding of the company) that it will arrive tomorrow.
Those 12 month deployments have not gone by the wayside as I found out that his new job will involve what would be a 12 month deployment, but he's leaving a little later since he just got there so he will be gone for 10-11 months. I also learned that not only is he deploying, he's deploying in March....yes, March. So after a month of him being gone at training where he was observing others who are getting ready to go overseas, he is now back for a short while only to deploy and be gone again. All the while leaving his young child and pregnant wife behind. Now, I know he didn't want to have this happen. No one asks for a long deployment unless they're desperate for more money and want to get away from their spouse.
However, I now find myself in a bit of a pickle...ok, more like a massive pile of shit. I am stuck with the decision of where to have the baby, back home with family, or here where we're stationed and I have two friends, one of which will be leaving in a month for training in the air force and the other in an intense nursing program. So, my interaction with other adults will be limited to say the least. However, staying here gives me my space, enough bedrooms, a doctor and hospital I know, and I don't have to worry about what to do with the animals. Going home presents the problem with the dogs and living space. With a toddler and a newborn things will be rather cramped and I'll only go home for a few months at most. I guess it's time to start a list of pros and cons. Either way I feel like I'm up shit creek without a paddle.
Being in the military and being a spouse of a soldier comes with many issues and this is one you hope you never have to face. The only ray of light is that 12 month deployments include a two week r&r whereas 9 months do not. So, there is a possibility that he may be here when the baby is born, but there's no guarantee that I'm going to have the baby in that two week window considering our first born was a week and a half early and who knows what will happen this time. So my positive cloud floating attitude has fallen flat and is now down pouring with unhappy emotions, but this is the way it is and I guess I just have to deal. So, in order to deal, I will be going to a store to buy some things for my sons new bedroom and then to the grocery store to buy the doughnut I've been craving for weeks.
On another note...my dress is STILL not here. Grrr. But at least I know (after much hounding of the company) that it will arrive tomorrow.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Things getting back to normal, before being not normal again
Hubs finally got in at 1:30am, Monday morning and the dogs decided it was time for me to get up as they barked when they heard him. I did manage to get to the dress rental shop yesterday only to find zip in the maternity size and to be honest, not much in regular sizes either. The selection was mainly a bunch of large sized mom-style dresses, smaller ones that looked like they could have been from the 90's, and the nice ones were mostly rather worn because they were the nice ones that everyone rented. There wasn't really anything for me to try on, so I became the one who dishes out her opinion on the dresses my friends tried on. I did enjoy just spending time with my friends though. My friend Sonia did find quite a nice dress so her total cost for this event will be much less than mine (given my dress gets here!!). It's Tuesday and still no dress. I'm a bit insistent on getting more info from the company, but they've not been must help as of late. It does say my order is being shipped, so lets hope that it at least gets here by Thursday so I can attempt to avoid the nicely wrinkled too long or short look. I hate ordering dresses online.
Anyway, no news yet on the deployment, but from a conversation I had last night it does seem entirely possible that he may be here for a month and leave again. NOT happy. So, hopefully he gets home today with some less than excruciating news about how they won't send him in March. Until 5:30 I must wait. One good thing about the day is I now have my two necklaces that I can choose from to go with my currently nonexistent dress and I'll be meeting up with my friends yet again for dinner. I suppose I better get all the me time in a can in the next month if I end up being here without hubby next month! And if I do find out March is the month for his departure, I may have to console myself with a nice long john doughnut.Guess there's not much I can do at this point other than attempt to enjoy the day while waiting for more info...and a tasty dinner. Think I might make a pesto chicken sandwich while I wait (which I made the other day and it was to die for!) and perhaps vegetate on the sofa until the little one wakes. Here's to another day of positive attitude and not knowing anything else. Clarification is on the horizon...good or bad.
Anyway, no news yet on the deployment, but from a conversation I had last night it does seem entirely possible that he may be here for a month and leave again. NOT happy. So, hopefully he gets home today with some less than excruciating news about how they won't send him in March. Until 5:30 I must wait. One good thing about the day is I now have my two necklaces that I can choose from to go with my currently nonexistent dress and I'll be meeting up with my friends yet again for dinner. I suppose I better get all the me time in a can in the next month if I end up being here without hubby next month! And if I do find out March is the month for his departure, I may have to console myself with a nice long john doughnut.Guess there's not much I can do at this point other than attempt to enjoy the day while waiting for more info...and a tasty dinner. Think I might make a pesto chicken sandwich while I wait (which I made the other day and it was to die for!) and perhaps vegetate on the sofa until the little one wakes. Here's to another day of positive attitude and not knowing anything else. Clarification is on the horizon...good or bad.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Today was a boring day.
Despite the fact that the almighty Super Bowl was on (which I didn't watch any of except a few min of halftime before I decided it sucked) my day was pretty uneventful.
While I had expected to see my hubby today, he did not come home and is not due to until close to 2am. I spent the day trying to figure out what to do with myself as I had cleaned all but the tub in the lower master suite since I figured I had some paw washing I would be doing and would thus make it a muddy mess again. Much to my surprise I didn't have to wash any paws today!!!
I did get a phone call though, and managed to find a little more info about my future...but nothing concrete and not dates of anything. Not sure I'm going to like it when I do get all the info, but for now, I'll wait until Tuesday to find out anything since that's when we should know.
I do know that tomorrow I have a chance to get some things done and believe me, I plan on getting somethings done...go to the mall to have my makeup tested for Friday or maybe go to a dress rental place to see if I can find a backup dress in case my dress doesn't come in. Maybe I'll just go to the store and buy some birthday presents for my little guy and pick up that chocolate covered, cream filled donuts I've been craving for weeks. There does happen to be a Dunkin Donuts right across from Walmart....if I can't find one at Walmart I can find one there! Maybe I can even buy a bed for my little guy and get him started on the path to the "big boy" bed and eventually potty training! Oh what a joy it would be to have him potty trained before the next baby gets here! We'll see. For now I'll just be happy to get him into a regular bed.
Anyway, tomorrow is another day and I like this positive attitude I've had and hope that I can keep it going! We'll see how it goes when Tuesday gets here.
While I had expected to see my hubby today, he did not come home and is not due to until close to 2am. I spent the day trying to figure out what to do with myself as I had cleaned all but the tub in the lower master suite since I figured I had some paw washing I would be doing and would thus make it a muddy mess again. Much to my surprise I didn't have to wash any paws today!!!
I did get a phone call though, and managed to find a little more info about my future...but nothing concrete and not dates of anything. Not sure I'm going to like it when I do get all the info, but for now, I'll wait until Tuesday to find out anything since that's when we should know.
I do know that tomorrow I have a chance to get some things done and believe me, I plan on getting somethings done...go to the mall to have my makeup tested for Friday or maybe go to a dress rental place to see if I can find a backup dress in case my dress doesn't come in. Maybe I'll just go to the store and buy some birthday presents for my little guy and pick up that chocolate covered, cream filled donuts I've been craving for weeks. There does happen to be a Dunkin Donuts right across from Walmart....if I can't find one at Walmart I can find one there! Maybe I can even buy a bed for my little guy and get him started on the path to the "big boy" bed and eventually potty training! Oh what a joy it would be to have him potty trained before the next baby gets here! We'll see. For now I'll just be happy to get him into a regular bed.
Anyway, tomorrow is another day and I like this positive attitude I've had and hope that I can keep it going! We'll see how it goes when Tuesday gets here.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Oh the suspense!
The anticipation of everything, good or bad is killing me!
I thought my dress for the ball would be here today, it's not. I thought my necklaces I ordered to see what matches the earrings I love and am wearing with the dress would be here, they're not. I ordered some books...they're not here. The ball is Friday and I still have to figure out where to get my makeup done and I haven't. I am getting my hair done in a style I have wanted to try for awhile...but I have almost a week to wait.
I have a week to wait until I find out if I'm having a boy or girl. I have one day until my husband comes home and I can hopefully get more info on whats going on. He still has yet to tell me when he's getting home on Sunday. I have a month or more before I may be alone for 9, but I don't know if that's going to happen.
All and all I just want answers. I'm not stressed about it or upset, just eager to know and get my things! I did try contacting the store about the dress and I have checked the shipping, so at least I know when my jewelry and a couple books will be here, but the dress and one book is still a mystery.
I am also hoping to get to a place that rents dresses...as a backup...but have to wait until Monday at lest. Oh the suspense of it all.
There's also the upcoming trip to visit family and celebrate my little ones birthday. Which means I have to find some Thomas the train supplies...haven't found a store that has them, so I may be shopping online for this one. I still have to get presents, but I think I have them mostly picked out though. And I have to find a gift for my nephew by the same time since I'll see him back home as well. So much to do, so little time...well, at least when it comes to buying presents because as any parent knows it's hell trying to buy toys when you have your little one with you and they can't have the toy right then and there. Will be doing this tomorrow or next weekend when my hubby can watch our son.
Then there's the not so exciting parts like the possibility of deployment and waiting to see the next time I'll have to wash the dogs paws because they won't stop digging in the freakin yard! They have a new trench and boy oh boy do I wish I had the charger for the electronic collar because they're too far to throw a ball or get them distracted with something, one doesn't listen for crap, and both of them are stellar performers at covering their paws with caked on mud and then staring me right in the eye pleading to be let back inside while I'm fuming on the other side of the glass knowing full well that they require ANOTHER bath. I don't think I've ever washed these dogs paws so many times in one week or even a day! I can only imagine how thrilled my husband will be when he comes home and sees the masterpiece they've created in the yard. Although, to my defense, he is the one who left the charger back at a hunting place when we went home for Christmas. Anyway, there's so much going on and I just can't believe how much is going to be packed in one month! It seems like it's shaping up to be a good one, but a crazy one.
I thought my dress for the ball would be here today, it's not. I thought my necklaces I ordered to see what matches the earrings I love and am wearing with the dress would be here, they're not. I ordered some books...they're not here. The ball is Friday and I still have to figure out where to get my makeup done and I haven't. I am getting my hair done in a style I have wanted to try for awhile...but I have almost a week to wait.
I have a week to wait until I find out if I'm having a boy or girl. I have one day until my husband comes home and I can hopefully get more info on whats going on. He still has yet to tell me when he's getting home on Sunday. I have a month or more before I may be alone for 9, but I don't know if that's going to happen.
All and all I just want answers. I'm not stressed about it or upset, just eager to know and get my things! I did try contacting the store about the dress and I have checked the shipping, so at least I know when my jewelry and a couple books will be here, but the dress and one book is still a mystery.
I am also hoping to get to a place that rents dresses...as a backup...but have to wait until Monday at lest. Oh the suspense of it all.
There's also the upcoming trip to visit family and celebrate my little ones birthday. Which means I have to find some Thomas the train supplies...haven't found a store that has them, so I may be shopping online for this one. I still have to get presents, but I think I have them mostly picked out though. And I have to find a gift for my nephew by the same time since I'll see him back home as well. So much to do, so little time...well, at least when it comes to buying presents because as any parent knows it's hell trying to buy toys when you have your little one with you and they can't have the toy right then and there. Will be doing this tomorrow or next weekend when my hubby can watch our son.
Then there's the not so exciting parts like the possibility of deployment and waiting to see the next time I'll have to wash the dogs paws because they won't stop digging in the freakin yard! They have a new trench and boy oh boy do I wish I had the charger for the electronic collar because they're too far to throw a ball or get them distracted with something, one doesn't listen for crap, and both of them are stellar performers at covering their paws with caked on mud and then staring me right in the eye pleading to be let back inside while I'm fuming on the other side of the glass knowing full well that they require ANOTHER bath. I don't think I've ever washed these dogs paws so many times in one week or even a day! I can only imagine how thrilled my husband will be when he comes home and sees the masterpiece they've created in the yard. Although, to my defense, he is the one who left the charger back at a hunting place when we went home for Christmas. Anyway, there's so much going on and I just can't believe how much is going to be packed in one month! It seems like it's shaping up to be a good one, but a crazy one.
Friday, February 1, 2013
Is the glass half empty or half full?
When the winds of change come your way, you can embrace it or fight it. While I have many changes in my future, I hope that I can embrace those changes and learn from them. I am fortunate in many ways others are not, and I am unlucky in ways some are not. Either way you look at it we all have challenges to face and it's the way we face them that makes us who we are and makes us strong or weak.
I'm not what I would call a strong person when we comes to emotions such as keeping my cool or expressing my frustrations. I tend to bottle things inside and hold it in until I can't take it any longer. I have come to realize that that is one way of dealing with it and likely one way to eventually cause a major blowout when I should be searching for a way to solve the problem rather than exacerbate it. I have watched my friends create their lives, be it traveling to far off lands, moving to other states and pursuing their dream, moving to other states and deciding that their dream is getting old and they need something else, or staying local and creating a family, even though it may not have been the timing they preferred. All and all you never know what your life will bring, but I've come to realize that it is what you make of it and you have to be strong and fight for what you want.
I am a military wife, I move when they say move, I find a job where they say I'm going to live, and I have children whether or not my husband can be there. It's not easy and often not fun, but I have realized that you have to attempt to embrace this life if you are going to make it. I will not always have this life and I do not always enjoy this life, but for now I can express my concerns to my husband, but my concerns will only be able to be resolved by him if they are on a more personal level because there's little he can do when the Army says jump, you jump.
I have a lot to discuss with my husband when he comes home and there will be a lot of decisions to be made when the Army decides to tell us what's going to happen in the next 6 months. Things may get ugly, but at this point we are where we are and as a wife there's not much I can do short of complain to my husband, friends, and family.
Throughout my life I've had a "glass is half empty" kind of attitude and I try to help myself by expecting the worst that way I can be surprised when I don't get the worst. However, I feel that sometimes this approach backfires, but it has helped me get through a few tough situations with deployments and such.
I think the best thing to do is to plan to the best of your ability, keep a positive attitude, and do everything in your power to get the things you want in life or time will pass you by and you'll be left wondering where it went. I have somethings I want, there are things I want to do, goals I have in mind, and soon I will set things in motion to get my life going on a track that will get me to a place where I want to be. Here's to keeping a positive attitude about everything and keeping an open mind...one thing that is very useful as a military spouse.
I'm not what I would call a strong person when we comes to emotions such as keeping my cool or expressing my frustrations. I tend to bottle things inside and hold it in until I can't take it any longer. I have come to realize that that is one way of dealing with it and likely one way to eventually cause a major blowout when I should be searching for a way to solve the problem rather than exacerbate it. I have watched my friends create their lives, be it traveling to far off lands, moving to other states and pursuing their dream, moving to other states and deciding that their dream is getting old and they need something else, or staying local and creating a family, even though it may not have been the timing they preferred. All and all you never know what your life will bring, but I've come to realize that it is what you make of it and you have to be strong and fight for what you want.
I am a military wife, I move when they say move, I find a job where they say I'm going to live, and I have children whether or not my husband can be there. It's not easy and often not fun, but I have realized that you have to attempt to embrace this life if you are going to make it. I will not always have this life and I do not always enjoy this life, but for now I can express my concerns to my husband, but my concerns will only be able to be resolved by him if they are on a more personal level because there's little he can do when the Army says jump, you jump.
I have a lot to discuss with my husband when he comes home and there will be a lot of decisions to be made when the Army decides to tell us what's going to happen in the next 6 months. Things may get ugly, but at this point we are where we are and as a wife there's not much I can do short of complain to my husband, friends, and family.
Throughout my life I've had a "glass is half empty" kind of attitude and I try to help myself by expecting the worst that way I can be surprised when I don't get the worst. However, I feel that sometimes this approach backfires, but it has helped me get through a few tough situations with deployments and such.
I think the best thing to do is to plan to the best of your ability, keep a positive attitude, and do everything in your power to get the things you want in life or time will pass you by and you'll be left wondering where it went. I have somethings I want, there are things I want to do, goals I have in mind, and soon I will set things in motion to get my life going on a track that will get me to a place where I want to be. Here's to keeping a positive attitude about everything and keeping an open mind...one thing that is very useful as a military spouse.
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